Think too much make me miserable

Not going to work for 3 weeks make me think lots of things. Start from my health, future, daily life, spiritual life, family, money, work, to-do-list, home, settle down and so on. Its not really a good practice but this gives me a room to think about things that I left behind, forgotten or maybe I-will-think-about-it-later or tomorrow kind of stuff. It really makes me confused and miserable. I start to find here and there and it will always ends up nothing and life goes back to just like yesterday.

I try to find out where went wrong and guess what, all come back and pointed to ME. My biggest challenge now is my health and all I can do is to improve my life style and to do this alone is good enough to make my life and mind not in good track. Let me share this to you; to find good and trusted medicine/supplement, where to get it from, how much does it costs me, no assurance and to try them already cost me RMxxx per month at least, private or government hospital?. It takes lots of consideration and conditions. I wonder about what will happen with my health 10, 20, 30 years later. My gosh, now I even thinking about death. Okay, I think I need to pray a lot to find peace in my heart.

Maybe, maybe...this is so called unhealthy thoughts. I read this article I found while ago in internet;

People with good emotional health are aware of their thoughts, feelings and behaviors. They have learned healthy ways to cope with the stress and problems that are a normal part of life. They feel good about themselves and have healthy relationships.

However, many things that happen in your life can disrupt your emotional health and lead to strong feelings of sadness, stress or anxiety. These things include:

• Being laid off from your job
• Having a child leave or return home
• Dealing with the death of a loved one
• Getting divorced or married
• Suffering an illness or an injury
• Getting a job promotion
• Experiencing money problems
• Moving to a new home or having a baby.

As a christian, I believe in this, PRAY.

I need a break....