Helping is troubling

When we are in trouble, not all the time friend can help us. I realized when I ask for a small help but a friend of mine sounds so hard to help. I dont blame anyone but maybe just a little comparison for myself. When I put myself in that person shoe and I see that my friend really needs help (judge from the trouble happened to me) I will help for sure. I've been in the very difficult situation when I was young and I understand exactly how it feels.

When I think back, some person never been into that situation and they dont understand that so I cant blame anyone. We are in the position of asking help cannot aspect people to help us as we wish but their response will affect our personal judgement towards the person. It is something like "does she/he deserve to be called friend if cannot help a friend and the reason for that is lazy?". But deep down in my heart, I understand my friend's situation. I dont know but it just a little disappointment to a friend that I consider as a close friend. The thing is, even friends that I newly know can offer help without me asking but why this friend that I know for few years cant do that. This is not about my friend didnt help me but maybe I am too emotional about the saying "What's friend for".

PEACE be with you.

World Cup 2010

Its been awhile im into this sport and this is the 3rd world cup since I know how to watch, comment, follow guys conversations about football (Soccer) and things like that. This is entertaining and fun when I have a team that I like. I still remember when I just started to follow friends to watch and learn about it. Not much really...but somehow I can talk with my guy friends and at least I have something to say and even share my opinion.

It was funny when I think back, I don't understand why guys like to watch it and most of the time they non-stop talking about it. Now I know, I feel frustrated every time my team lost and not playing good enough. I even watch the game alone...hehe. My colleagues amazed and even laugh at me when I talk to guys about football. They quite surprise I can get up at 2.30am just to watch the game.

To tell you the truth, I still have lots of things that I don't know about this sport. But I just love this game or maybe my new interest. Some of my friends said its not about the sport that catches me but the good looking players. I simply said, "I like the team".

Now, World Cup fever is everywhere. I don't really have favourite team but I still wanted to follow the news and watch the game. Lets just see which team will win this World Cup this year.

Sucks

I hate so many things in my life including myself.
Why? Because i just hate it...Am i too straight? Deal with it....

It takes time to heal this illness.

I dont know this,
I dont know that,
Why this happen to me,
Why I do that
I could have done that better
I can do better
I can do that but why I still cant pass it through
Why I always think like that
Im suck
Im terrible
I just never being prepared but at least im being honest
Im stuck here
I hate someone
I hate myself
Almost hate everything
Why?
aaarrrgggghhh...!!!
Always the same story...duuuhhh...
Dragging time....bad
I should hate the list
I hate fixing people's simple bad habit...hate it...
I hate it when I need to say thing for second time
Aaaarrrggghhh....you suck May....really..
Change the attitude...
No comment...............do I need to say it out loud.

to be continued....this is fun...real fun..!!!


Sucks,
May

No blogging for almost 2 months and here I come again

Woww, almost 2 months off blogging? I have lots of things to say but just couldnt find the words. Blogging its all about idea. You have the story but no idea to put it into words, no point. But if we really dont have any idea then try to start with two or three words maybe enough, as long as you let it out. You maybe angry so blog it. If the thing too personal then just tell your feeling and its enough to lessen our burden.

So, Im going to start again. Below is my new blog after two months off and there will be more after this.

I need makeup set and a good one.

The day before yesterday when I was figuring out how to dress up for my junior's convo, I've just realise that I dont have make-up set. As a woman at least I have one but I dont. Even Im not good at this but sometimes I touch up my face when I feel want to. Its not because of not interested but I dont need them regularly. I only buy some of my things when I need it and its always been like that. A friend of mine suggested me one brand, Mary Kay. Never heard of this brand, interesting isnt it? well, im not suprise since im not into that yet. I wanted to have one just incase I need it in future for any occasions. I mean, its so funny I dont have one. I will try this Mary Kay and find out more out there.

My friend mad at me

I just dont understand why he mad at me ...actually I do understand but maybe he is having a bad day today that a piece of advise, spontanious came out like that also makes him angry. Take it easy. Im not educating you if that what you think. It just a conversations. Sorry if that make you hurt.

When we think too much about what people say sometimes make us miserable and take it so hard. Even we say it in a spontanious way like sembang kosong. Well, he maybe a very complicated type of person, take every single words as complicated as himself/herself even they know our characters that like to play and joke sometimes.

Anger makes us down.
Anger makes us uncontrollable.
Anger makes us away from friends.
Anger makes us losing friends.
Anger leads us to unhealthy thinking.
Anger leads us to fight.
Anger create the way to hatred
We must know where to put the anger.
Anger makes us lack of LOVE.
Because LOVE is the foundation of everything.

Love you all and peace to all humankind...:)

Just awake

...I am just awake....
...rushing for cooking...
...rushing to arrange my collections of KFC and McD
...dont forget your book May...
...ya, im done...now go for shower...

Happy day May...I love you MYSELF....:)